Miss HIM......

Sweetheart, where are you wen i need you the most??? i'm missing you a lot...... i'm sorry for all the things i ever said. i was wrong. wish you wud come back to me............................ love you always....................................lml

Back to square one......

We fought again. i just cant take this anymore. i love him so much and it hurts to fight with him or be away from him for even one day. but i think i have a lot to learn in and from this world. he wants to protect me and so he wants me to listen to every single thing he says. but i seriously don't see wats wrong with goin to a cricket match and staying out till late in the night. Actually he was ryt. i mean my cousin and her friend were with me and my friend was also there n he was just worried cos just 4 girls out late in the nyyt is not very safe. n my cousin is young and i was responsible for her n everything. but i apologised to him and said i understood wat he was trying to say but he needn't have fought with me for that. God n is it my fault that the driver is a big fraud?? why shud he blame me for that? its almost two days since we spoke and i was just too devastated to come online. NEway, my point is i think i'l only learn from my mistakes and im only just 19 and i have a long way to go. i think instead of trying to make me a rebel he shud try to guide me and help me learn from my mistakes...... GOD, i wish he wud understand.
TO HIM,,,,Sweetheart, if at all u ever read this sometym i just want to say,i love u and i miss u a lot.

Down n All Alone

I love him..... i miss him a lot. he does not understand anything. he does not care. if we are happy for 2 days, we fight for 2 weeks. i just hope he still loves me. everyone i know are bothered about themselves. i feel like i have no one and i feel lonely. im scared. i don wan2 b without anybody for me. but someday i wud create something for myself. but now im scared, even here, i feel so lonely. no one is even bothering to read my blog or comment on it. i guess this is how it is meant to be. thanx GOD.

Dear God......,

Thanx again......,,, i had the greatest day ever..... i love him so much.... today was so special. i was with him from morning til evening and it felt like i was on the top of the world. wish i could be with him forever n eva..... thanx again..... i will neva forget this day. i cherish every single minute i spent with him.i LLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLooooooooooooooooooooooovvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee HIM........... i hold him very close to my heart and there he will be always ;)
And i wish every single person in this world could share my happiness..............:)

What the Alchemist made me think.....

Today i was reading "The Alchemist" at work and i realised that there are so many things in life that i still need to understand.... not that i understood anything of the book actually cos it was all so confusing but wat i really understood was that i really need to understand myself first and then the purpose of my life. im trying to do that very unsuccessfully. i was just thinking about life and God and how God came to be. i mean if God made man, who made Him? i think man created God.... i guess i shud study lot more books on evolution. I'm not saying God does not exist, all im saying is that there is no proof of the existence of the almighty and i believe all religion and their inventors are probably mere mortals who understood the purpose of the world better than anybody else. but i guess we wud never kno the truth about God til He actually shows himself to us or til we die and move on to another world(if it exists). and i also want to kno if there is a Supreme Being cald God then wud HE want his children who are the people of this world to fight?? because of him?? i mean fight for other things like food or power or anything else is understandable but why create different religions?? why come down in various avatars and create disputes between his people thru various religions?? If He calls this as balancing of nature then i guess He is wrong. i mean at this rate ppl are goin to doubt the existence of God. But i believe there must be a COSMIC ENERGY which is responsible for the evolution of mankind. The UNIVERSE has always been a mystery and will continue to be so. Lets wait n watch........
For now im goin to watch the match and hope the Cosmic favours the Super Kings.......

Thank YOU GOD......

God??? if U are there, i just wanted to say thanx.... thanx for making him understand my love and thanx for helping me understand his love.... i love him so much and i want it to be the same way forever.... i want him to kno that always.... ther hav been days wen i;v cried endlessly hoping that he wud understand how much i love him and wishing he wud appreciate the things i do for him....

GOD???? Are you listening??

he hurt himself and i never thot i cud feel so much pain to c ne1 else suffer. i thot i was goin 2 die. i cannot take this God.... U bastard, all i asked u was a peaceful happy life but u r trying to take my life away from me. if something happens to him i swear wen i finally meet u(if u even exist), u better have a good reason for wateva ur making me n him go thru or i swear i'l strangle u to death or even worse i'l turn u into a human so u actually kno wat suffering really is. do u even exist?? i seriously wonder n if u do then do something to let me kno that u r listening...... okay?? but wateva u do, u shud kno i love him and il always love him.n u do one more thing to him i wont let u rule in peace.i kno its probably difficult for u, wat with zillions of people complaining and requesting n everything,, thats why i say u shud make a visit in some mortal form.come back to the world,, okay i hav a lotta things to say to u, so il write later.... I LOVE Him a lot with all my heart n U cant change that by just putting me thru shit. okay??