he was two timing me....

so u kinda get the picture now? ryt? ok so only one of my frens knew abt us... everyone suspected us but no one knew for sure.... i have my flaws too, i mean im not perfect or nething... once wen we wer supposed to go for a frens wedding in delhi, he had planned a trip to singapore with his daughter(he's got a 5 yr old daughter n a 2 yr old son, he's not too old) he was supposed to come to delhi n leave from ther... but before i left to delhi we had an argument n he neva spoke to me... he din come to delhi n i din kno tat he had left to singapore til my dad mentioned it to me. i was hurt.... i tried calling him n he din talk to me properly n he just kept hanging up as if he had so many things to do n he cant spend tym talkin to me.... i cried n cried, jus goin away on vacation had changed,,,, apparently he went clubbing(again my dad mentioned it,,, my mum dosen talk to him anymore n he dosen come home, but my dad talks to him and they meet somewhr outside.).... he had promised me tat he wudn go clubbing without me... oh no... im not the possessive-follow my rules bitchy type of girl friend.... i neva askd him to promise me anything... i told him he cud do wateva he wanted n i wud give him his space but he on his own promised me tat he wudn do anything without me cos he loved me so much n wanted to do everything with me... i told him i'l b hurt if i found out tat he's been doin things behind my back n i told him to do wateva he wanted...but he promised n said i'l neva find out anything cos he wud neva do anything without me to begin with... so yea... coming bac to delhi, i was hurt... all i cud think was i'v been giving up on everything in life just to b with him n he has fun without me knowing well i'd b hurt.... so then i thot sod it, if he can have fun so can i.... so met this guy at the wedding reception,, he was swedish n seriously nice... he seemed to like me n he was flirting with me big tym... so we went for a little walk n i showed him pics frm my fone n we spoke abt general stuff...i really din kno wat i was doin.. al i wanted to do was hurt to get him bac for wat he did to me.... n so we stood there talkin n my cousin found us in the 3rd floor talkin to each other... my da was rite behind him... my dad was furious n he took me back down... but this swedish guy was decent enough to apologise... he apologised to my brother n my cousins... so finally i messaged this guy tellin him everything tat happened... i cald him the next day n he was furious n he din talk to me properly,, i begged him to come back to home n i told him i missed him...i told him i wanted to c him on new year's... but he din bother.. he partied there al the tym n came bac at his own pace n he acted lyk everything was normal.... i was seriously hurt.... i'v cried without end thinking abt these things...
six months bac i found out a lot of things from him.... that female cald up n she asked me wat was goin on between me n him.... she told me a lot of things abt him after i told her he was only my closest friend... she told me how no one in her family neva spoke to her for yrs after she ran away with him n how her brother dosen talk to her still... i cried n cried... i had no one to talk to n i cried so much... the next day he cald up lyk nothing happened even though he knew wel wat had happened cos wen he went bac home tat nyt i was still on the fone with her n she askd him to talk to me n he disconnected the cal.... oh yea n he was supposed to b living on his own... he said he'd moved out n he dosen even visit them anymore... wen i askd him abt it, he din hav an answer n acted like i was trying to ruin things... he had told her a lot of things abt me as well lyk how i was pestering him to talk to me n he wasn interested n how he's planned to go settle down in dubai so he dosen hav to talk to me... i found out so many things like he had been having sex with her almost everyday wen he promised me he dosen even talk to her or go to her place properly.... again wen i askd him he only told me tat i was being paranoid n gulped down everything she said... n he told me if i din trust him i don hav to talk to him anymore... he told me that she knew abt us n was trying her best to ruin our relationship.... she also told me how wen he started seeing her, he wud take her to his mother's place al the tym... again he told me i was the first person he ever took to his house n i was the one he wanted to share his childhood memories....he'd do anything for his kids n i told him i wanted him to b mine n only mine.... he said he din like his kids as much as he liked me.... i was a kid myself n i needed attention.... i got that... i cant complain.... he gave me his attention full tym... his other life was only wen he wasn with me.... al the tym he was living a double life, two timing me n i thot there was nothing more in the world he loved other than me.... after al this i still love him.... i dunno why but i really do love him a lot n i kno i'l always love him....